Self Sabotage Series – #1
I’m starting a new series I’m calling ‘The Self-Sabotage Series.’ These are short reflections, as I try to process the ways that I self-sabotage. I am earnestly attempting to recognize how I get in my own way and then unlearn these behaviors. I’ve decided to document my thoughts along the way.
Stop Hiding
You don’t need to earn your self-worth. Your self-worth isn’t tied to your accomplishments.
I am re-learning this right now.
Sometimes I feel like I need a project to be excellent, brilliant, amazing, exhaustive, and flawless because it represents me. And that pressure I put on myself forces me to hide. I hide instead of showing up and doing the work because I’m second guessing myself constantly. I’m so wrapped up in the BIG picture of the project and how I’ll be defined by its success or failure that I freeze. This is where my larger perspective isn’t super helpful. I need to recenter and remember that my worth isn’t found in these extrinsic projects.
My worth is inherent. A given. A foregone conclusion. And my success is inevitable.
When I’m grounded in these truths again, I find a small task I can work on from the project. Because I know zooming out too far makes me prone to feeling overwhelmed, I try to break the project down and work on the increments. Stay steady and trust the process.
“…scaling a hill is a lot less daunting than climbing a mountain, and sometimes all we need to get going is a little momentum.” -Caroline Zook
I know that I can only succeed if I start moving. No matter how small or incremental, I just need to show up and start.
Stop hiding and remember your worth. You can do this.